Early Endeavours
At 16, I started college and studied Law and English literature.
I was convinced that law was the profession for me, but after a few months in college, I realised that I had no interest in the subjects and couldn’t put my full heart and soul into the work.
I started skipping lessons, and eventually dropped out and gave up my position within the subjects.
I then decided to get a full-time job within a holiday home agency. I didn’t really have a plan at this age, I just assumed I would figure out what I wanted to do eventually.
This is exactly what had happened and a few years later, when I was 17/18, I found myself moving to Cardiff.
This is where I got a job within the government’s health and disability assessments, while I figured out where I was going to go with my life.
This job cemented how I did not want to sit at an office desk for the rest of my life, with no career progression and the constant feeling of not positively impacting other people’s lives.
Experiencing Stress
I have always suffered with my mental health, but during this period of my life, it was worse than ever.
I was finding it extremely difficult to find a purpose amongst the depression and anxiety that had taken over me.
I had uncontrollable suicidal thoughts and had no one to turn to for help.
It felt like I was trapped in this endless black void, and I was petrified.
I quickly realised that there was so little support for young people surrounding their mental health.
To me, it was so scary to think of people in less fortunate positions than me, experiencing these illnesses with nowhere to turn.
I was determined not to let this take over me, and I sought help from my GP practice and other health care professionals, who referred me to cognitive behaviour therapy (CBT), prescribed me medications (which I still take to this day) and diagnosed me with various depressive and anxiety disorders.
Harnessing Optimism
When I felt more settled within myself, and more optimistic about the future, out of nowhere I suddenly knew exactly what my purpose in life was.
I realised it was to help other young people who were suffering from their mental health.
I want to offer that support and be that person, that I did not have, and I really wanted to raise awareness and end all the stigma surrounding mental health.
I want to be that person who young people experiencing these issues, seek to feel safe, wanted and understood.
I am unsure where I would be if I was not offered support from health care professionals, and I knew how lucky I was to of even been offered this.
As many individuals are not.
It was evident that there has to be a change within the system, and I want to be a part of that change.
A New Journey
This motivation gave me the confidence to start my access to nursing course and apply for a place within the 2021 paediatric nursing cohort.
The access course provided me with so many skills and expanded my knowledge greatly surrounding all aspects of nursing.
I passed with 33 Distinctions, 9 Merits, 3 Passes (128 UCAS Points) which I was so proud of, as I never in a million years thought I could get the grades for university.
I then applied for three universities, I was offered a place in the University of the West of England (UWE) for the September 2021 start, and the University of South Wales (USW) for the January 2022 start.
I was so thankful for these offers and wanted to get stuck straight in, so I accepted the place in UWE.
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Ellie Mae is a nursing student studying children and young people’s nursing at UWE. She is currently in her first year and feeling as though she has found her purpose. She also works bank shifts as a Nursing Assistant.
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2 years agoEllie Mae thank you for your interesting and open discussion of your experiences and how you are proactively working towards ... read more
Ellie Mae thank you for your interesting and open discussion of your experiences and how you are proactively working towards your goal. I am a lecturer at Birmingham City University and recently left clinical nursing as I wanted to support student nurses in a different way. I have had the opportunity to work in various nursing pathways since I qualified in 1993 and feel this is really good for enhancement of the student nurse experience. I wish you every success in your training and your future nursing career, the nursing world is your oyster.
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